Brian’s world in week 2
We already had an oral which i think went well. It was on “Riders to the Sea” by John Millington Synge and we had to do a 5 minute presentation on how we would stage the play. I was probably the closest to the actual time limit, but i wasn’t as chock full of information as, oh let’s say, Shay. I didn’t go until today (8/29/07) so i had more time to actually listen to what other people wanted to do. I think most of them were staying in a safe realm of realism, but i really appreciate the idea of expressionism and surrealism. I love to create my set designs allong those kinds of lines. I think it’s better to do realism when your doing film, theatre you have a bigger creative realm as far as keeping it on a stage and having to get your point across in an hour and a half without a rewind button. It takes more cahones. Luckily I, Sir Boitano, have much cahones and i think i pulled it off. I was nervous about my costume designs cause i HATE fashion and i’m always scared that i’m going to screw it up and then find out later that an empire waist line is a symbol of innocence, and low cut is symbol of power or something crazy like that. I’ll just stick to what i know… Over all, my presentation was not as good as the other ones, but it was actually within the time limit which was what no-one else did, so i did accomplish something. I think for my next oral i need to delve a bit more into the underlying tones of the author and bring them forth. It’s my job as a director to make everything obvious and be able to let the audience leave the theatre knowing exactly what i meant. Coming up next in class are our actual scenes from Rider and i will be playing the lead role of “Bartley.” We don’t have any other information as to what we need to do as far as off-books, but i’m on top of my lines. More excitedly, is “Moby Dick the Musical.” For the sake of everyone in drama, i did not apply to be stagemanager. But looking back on my experiences here at spruce creek, i’ve done almost everything there could possibly be backstage/tech booth, but i have never acted. It’s not that i never wanted to, but it’s that i don’t think i’ve ever got the opportunity. I know that i can in the very least try, i have had good scenes in class, and i think comedy is my forte. The thing is, i never seem to be given the chance. I’ve been dying for an acting role since i was a freshman, and now i’m a senior and still standing infront of the entire drama club with nearly nothing on my acting resume. It’s not that i feel like a hypocrit, but more like a student who’s not well rounded. Of course we get to act in class, but it’s different to get out infront of a paying audience and give them a real performence. Unfortunatly, it’s been extremely discouraging. Everytime i’m not cast in something i will get really down and promise to never audition for anything again because i apparently can’t fit any role, or i’m not good enough for any part, or i’m not pretty enough, thin enough, or talented. I know rejection is a part of theatre and it’s something you have to cope with. But after not being cast so many times, it really takes a toll on your self esteem. But not only that–if i audition for something outside spruce creek i have a whole resume less than everyone else who’s competing for the same part. Now i know what you’re thinking, “Brian? Not completely satisfied wiht himself?!?! WHAT?!?!” Yes, i know, but we’ve all been there people. I guess what i need to do this year is learn how to finally cope with what happens without hating life, and still audition even while thinking i don’t have a chance in hell. So i’ll focus on that and Stanislavski technique–both are key.
Brian’s First week Prt. 1
Having Monday be a complete dissaster with not having a schedual, I only got to go to one class; IB theatre. It was somewhat of a releif to go to a class that i needed to go to–but which one didn’t i need to go to? I don’t know, but i was insulted by the teacher when he said “Ohhh, Brian, you wern’t here in second period.” and i was like “Damned right i wasn’t! I was in that caferteria partroling my Ho’s!!” Then he apologized and was somewhat shocked at my will to stay at school despite not having much or anything to do but draw on my hand and hand out pimp slaps. Subsequently, the ink from my hand made marks on my Ho’s, I saved much time branding them with my design. The class was off to a great start when Kuiper said our goal this year was to not suck. I agreed with this–but i’m Brian, nothing of mine sucks. So i wasn’t concerned. But there’s a new curriculum and an old one but only the new one will be taught and the old one will be forgotten like babylon. For some reason we were all re-issued out method acting books from last year and then made us all sad because several/all of us were making fun of the Junios for having to read it. That and the three sisters. What i want this year is more opportunity to direct (not like one act sized, but like, pantomine, enchanted forrest and in class) I want to see if i can still do something decent. I also want more opportunity to do set design cause it’s something i think i can excell in. Then again, I’m Brian Boitano. What don’t i excell in? I think i’m looking hot this year and i’m really ready to become more everything. My one real goal is to finally get an acting role. I’ve never gotten one at spruce creek and i want to finally show everyone that i can’t just do tech, but i can do something else that takes a different kind of talent. Sometimes, i forget i’m Brian and…let’s face it, what talent don’t I have?
8/22/07
